The day of my reiki appointment had arrived. I walked into Kirsten’s lovely space with no expectations.
She was excited that it was my first time trying it. She explained that she hadn’t wanted to know much about my background, because a lot of what she experiences is intuitive, and she wanted it to be authentic.
She explained that prior to my treatment, she sat and thought about me, and was drawn to 3 things—an oracle deck, palm crystals for each hand, and an essential oil. Every part of that was optional. In addition, while touch during the treatment is minimal, you could opt out of that as well.
She showed me the oracle deck, and told me I could shuffle, or spread out the cards and choose one.
“I can’t shuffle, so should I just spread them out? Then I just pick one? I’ve never done this before.”
“Really?!”
“I’ve never dealt with oracle, or tarot cards, for that matter.”
“Well that is interesting. This isn’t a beginner’s deck that I was drawn too.”
I didn’t really know what to say to that. I spread the cards out, and chose one.
Next she presented me with the crystals I would be holding in each hand. One was a bluish turquoise colour, but the other, a mixture of pink with flecks of black and grey, stopped me in my tracks.
“What is that?”
“It’s rhodonite.”
“Well that’s interesting. My dad brought me home a stone rabbit from a business trip when I was a child, it looked like that.”
That rabbit had sat on my shelf for years. In fact, I was tucked away in a memory box at my home. I wondered if that was somehow significant.
The essential oil she was drawn to for me was lavender. Not my favourite, but I trusted the process.
I laid down on the table, covered with a blanket, with crystals in each hand. Kirsten had me inhale deeply and I closed my eyes.
She made her way to my toes and that was when it happened. I felt pressure between my eyes. It wasn’t painful, but it was intense. It was coupled with an almost blinding white light. It was so intense that I was struggling to keep my eyes fully closed. In fact, at several points I thought I was going to have to open them.
‘What the hell is happening’, I asked myself.
I had never felt anything like that before. I fought to keep my eyes closed, and eventually it lessened.
I was in and out of consciousness during the treatment. I wasn’t sleeping though. My crystals stayed firmed in my hands, pulsing. I felt my throat constrict a few times, and a guttural sound came out. Energy radiated throughout my body.
When the treatment was over, I was simply amazed that my Mother had tried this before and felt nothing. And I was the one that joked I was dead inside.
At that point I went to sit on the couch and Kirsten discussed what she had noticed.
“Is there a female in your life who has absolutely exhausted recently?”
I laughed. She was bang on. To avoid any further drama, I will keep that person’s name to myself.
“That was the first thing I noticed when I touched you. Your heart and solar plexus chakras were shuttered. I get the impression you have been making decisions purely with your mind, your third eye, and bypassing your heart and solar plexus, intuition centre, all together.”
Third eye. That was where I had seen the white light. I thought about her words and realized there had been many times recently where I had ignored my intuition, dove right in, and had to backtrack out again, slowly.
“Your crown chakra is completely closed. I’ve seen a lot of that lately. It is often open with people who are spiritual, or have a faith, or religion of some kind.”
“I am beginning to learn that I was taught something that has been a disservice to me. I was taught that being spiritual, and being religious, were one and the same, and I’m starting to realize that isn’t true.”
Without arguing religious beliefs here, I will simply say that I grew up going to church, and have no use for organized religion. The man made elements of churches, and places of worship, is not something I wish to be involved in, for a variety of reasons.
“You can certainly be spiritual, without being religious. You can have a relationship with yourself, and with Source, independent of the church.”
How freeing.
“I also feel your throat chakra is fine. It is open, and I saw a blue butterfly flying from it.”
Maybe this thyroid stuff was leading to some sort of transformation.
“I also see meditation being a big part of your journey.”
I scoffed at that. “I’m horrible at it. I tried recently and I couldn’t get my brain to be quiet.”
“Your mind is very powerful. The energy coming from your third eye was immense. Often that leads to frustration, because our mind is constantly going. You may only get moments of clarity from your sessions.”
Amongst suggesting meditation, she also suggested grounding. Going out and standing on the ground as much as possible. Apparently my feet are portals where energy exchange happens. My always cold feet were horrified at the idea.
She told me she saw something around Thanksgiving that was fun and full of fall colours. It hit me that I was planning a hiking trip with my oldest daughter that weekend.
“It is good you are going to have some fun because I sense an imbalance between your feminine and masculine sides. Your masculine side—your structure, and routine—is quite strong. The feminine side, the side that comes from nurturing, fun and self care, is stagnant.”
Once we finished talking, we flipped over my oracle card, and I laughed.
“What about that card makes you laugh?”
“It reminds me of my meditation journey. I am very new at it, and like I said before, not very good at it.”
“These things will come. I sense your curiosity. Keep trying the things that interest you, without getting overwhelmed, and give yourself some grace will doing it. A lot has happened to you in a short period of time.”
The next morning, I returned to meditation. Knowing which chakras were unbalanced gave me something to focus on. Afterwards, I went and stood in the grass. It was the true beginning of my practice.
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